I started gambling when I was 18, I’m 27 now. For the past 9 years I’ve been consistent and for as long as I can remember every time I was paid from work, I’d head straight to the casino or pub; sitting for hours, losing everything, sometimes I didn't even have enough money to get home.
Lying to family about what I’m doing with my money, it’s embarrassing now I think of it. Last year was my worst, borrowing money to gamble, selling things to gamble, never stole to gamble though, thank god. It’s ruined me as a person but now my mind is clear now that I’ve stopped. And in this short amount of time I’ve already noticed a difference. I’m not struggling anymore, I don’t have to lie anymore, I’m not as stressed. Sure I’ve built a lot of debt over the years, and that’s my next step to clear all that. One thing at a time.
It’s a disease I hated the person I was, pokies are designed to make you lose, making you a loser, someone told me this on New Year's while I was at the casino watching the fireworks, I put about $300 in that night (well actually in about 5 minutes) and lost it. Then I said 'yep that’s it I’m done', I was completely over it. It became boring to me. I may as well just throw the money in the bin. Haven't gambled since, besides lotto, once a week. I am in control and staying focused.