Anon's story

I've done it again, I had over $2,000 in the bank and I've just spent that playing the pokies hoping that I'll win big by betting the highest that the machine will go.

I promised myself I wouldn't do it again, and still I just blew it. I'm so over it, my kids are over it and lying to them about just popping out to go to the supermarket isn't making me feel any better.

I've hit rock bottom I think after stealing money from a relative that needs it more than me ... and all for what? So I can sit in front of a machine that takes my money to hear lots of bells and music go off?

I'm feeling desperate, sick to my stomach and I just feel like crying all the time. I make promises I can't keep to my children because I'm always spending the money that I have in the bank.

Enough is enough I think, it's time I started over again and realise that there's more to life than trying to win money.