I'm 25 years old. I have a beautiful family and a lovely home. I have travelled a lot and was so in control of my life, but over the last few years I have been dealing with a gambling problem.
It started the same as so many, just a little bit here and there, until now I can’t control it. The online casinos make it hard, it’s always there and I always find a way no matter how many obstacles I set.
It's like a voice telling me just a little bit more. I keep thinking I can dig my way out of the mess I'm in, but really it's just getting worse.
I have no idea how much I’ve spent but would say it's over $20,000. I feel so guilty, I know how disappointed my partner would be if he found out. He once told me my gambling scared him, I got angry but deep it scares me a lot too.
I'm always hiding it. I feel so deceitful. I have reached out to my mum. She knows it's bad - just not how bad it actually is. I want my little girl to never have to go without. I know I have to be strong for her.
Today I finally felt the anger - not the usual guilt, sadness and disappointment after I gambled. I'm hoping this anger continues to drive me to succeed.
I feel so ready to regain control of my life, it's not going to be an easy road but I know I can be strong enough. Gambling has held me back for long enough I'm ready to regain my wings.
If your reading this, I send love and light to anyone dealing with gambling addiction, it's the hardest thing to overcome and I wish you the best.