Sandie's story

Hi, I'm new here and would like to share my story. I've had a gambling addiction for 14 years and my last visit to the venue has just made me realise just how sick and tired I am of this. I feel like I have been taken hostage and finally have been set free. 

I constantly think of the past and the same feelings of guilt, regret, and shame come up then mess with my head and before I know it I'm sitting in front of the machine and for some stupid reason all my mixed emotions disappear, as a matter of fact every thought in my head disappears. However it only lasts until my very last dollar, then all hell breaks through and I feel 10 times worse and I hate myself so much it just feeds my addiction even more. Why would anyone do that to themselves?

Every time I play I also give my power away. I want to set myself free.